I am 23 years old fellow and I have lisp impediment since
birth. Today I’ve decided to speak out,
that how a lisp disorder individual endure such pain. I don’t know why I am
even writing this ,I know that expressing issues can’t resolve the
problems but it feels less distress then. My lisping problem is actually
inherited from my mother , so its obviously a genetic cause. Till the third standard I didn’t
realize or anybody has never pointed me on how I speak , probably because I was
just a kid and nobody specifically noticed until one day I was talking to my
classmate and a girl came from another class cracked a joke on how i talk. Let me first describe
what lisp actually is – it’s a speech disorder/ impediment where a person has difficulty
speaking some words with letters S’ Z ‘TH clearly and there are many other
words too but these are some commonalities as
I am experiencing it so. Now that I am fully aware of it I try avoid those
words which sounds like lisping , i am still trying to speak slowly or ignore those slangs but as
usual my efforts couldn’t succeed or
never going to . Anyways, I remember
each and every single moment when not even my friends but the teachers in school mocked me , its not less
than a crime . When I speak in front of
new people, I became so slushy and always scared that if these people get
to know about my problem they will laugh on me hard ,so only people who knew me
close understand it. In school days my classmates imitate my wordings,
sometimes I ignore or many a times or you can say I never opposed anybody if
they laughed on my speech, it’s not like I can’t speak if I lisp,but I drowned or blame myself so deeply that nothing came
out of my mouth so instead of talking
back I rather down my head or kept quiet and waited until they stop. Last year during
the internship days the supervisor asked
me to explain something, the moment I started explaining meanwhile the girls sitting
in front of me and supervisor too started laughing like hell, which was really a
awful moment, my eyes were full of tears
and anger but I couldn’t be able to do anything , many people said that they are unable to understand what I am talking about, not all people are
same, many of them never felt like I have a speech issue. Even though I am
struggling through such difficulties I tried to apply for jobs but there also I
faced the same issue of not being capable of anything. Despite these issues I
never get that much support or encouragement or attention from my family, my
mother left me when I was four , things are just always quiet difficult for me from childhood till now. I
have a very limited friend circle , I get hyper easily ,I have social anxiety
and completely habitual with such life .All
I wanted to say that judging people on their disabilities is a despicable job .
That’s why I love animals more, at least
they don’t hurt you more like what people do purposely .
